it's the beginning of yet another beginning ;

Bleargh. So i was going to do a trials reflection post ages ago, especially as I totally recorded experiences in their duration (yeah priorities) but it turned out even more massively egocentric than I usually am. Suffice to say they were probably the hardest two weeks of my life, but...they were also extremely character-building and unexpectedly heart-warming.

Now, something which I've put off for a while for unknown reasons and the main reason for this post...
An ode to Elaineeeee !
Also known as the twin I so unceremoniously adopted back in the dark ages of...~year eight or so.
Which doesn't REALLY work, because while we do fairly similar classes and (for now before my impending Arts elopement) seem to have relatively parallel futures, we're actually really quite different characters. Which I find pretty interesting. Nonetheless...
HI BUBBY :3
Although we've known each other for such a long period, I think that this year in particular, has taught me so much about you. And me. And us.
..okay now that sounds like an interesting relationship, my loveeee etc!
Anyway.
While (I think) you tend to underestimate yourself and have fits of confidence crises, I would like to tell you that...dude, you're seriously an amazing friend and person. Throughout the proverbial 'journey', you've been such a comfort, inspiration and have actually taught me so much with your tenacity and endurance. Respectttt :) despite my answering groans whenever you push whatever teacher for the extra work or marking, I actually do appreciate it. Deep down. Very deep down.
Also, I think one of the loveliest things about you is that you're nearly always so understanding and so unfailingly kind. Additionally, you take almost everything in good humour, which is yet another reason for why everyone loves you. However, I also think that this gives you a proclivity towards being hurt by others - because you're so open, you might also be easily affected. Thus, while I really do love your innocence bubble, I hope in the future you manage to keep it intact :3 Although I'm fairly sure you'll manage somehow, especially as I believe so much in your mental strength (probably so much more than you do). Seriously, within the last ~9 months, I wouldn't be able to tell you the countless instances at which I was just so awed at your talent towards perseverance, proactivity and optimism.
Thanks dahliinnggg :) for sharing in the corny jokes, teacher haunting and legal studies. Thanks for dealing with my spontaneous neurotic breakdowns and for the near-allnighters. Thanks for being such a support and we shall do this thing - together!
Heart you!

...so now that this is sufficiently awkward for anyone not Elaine...um. Now's probably the time for the mushy gushy wee wahh slushy stuff.
..yes that came out sounding far more stupid than intended ):
While I'm planning to follow this up with something far more deep in a few weeks...upshot - we're at yet another crossroads, and a rolls eyes at the personal waterworks which have already started. A few of the 'last lessons EVER' have already been done, and they were generally fantastic. And teary. Especially when teachers started doing the personal anecdotes thing (Eco!), gave us presents and Dr. Seuss (Legal!) or I just found that teachers of whom I was absolutely terrified of at the beginning of last year...fear had largely dissipated (Eng Ext 1! ...actually no, still slightly scared.). So much love towards school and friends at the moment and hoping the next week pans out nicely (:


P.S.. hsc study and worry. yes. it will come
P.P.S. is this entry not less bloviate-y than the others? Eeeee lessons on the road of conciseness! Or caused by time constraints. Time to record a legal vlog, actually think of a litluncheon thing and hopefully write an essay to make up for the past two weeks of brain stagnation :3